recap...

So starting where i left off....

The last week of school was annoying. I had so much stuff to do and not enough time to get things done. I tried to play as much as i could. Me and amanda and Kelly went to Porter park to play. It was so fun!
I got done with school and our last sunday we decided to be silly and take pictures before church. It was so much fun lol we got all pretty. :) chelsey and amanda and I were all dancing around the kitchen. I think we were just so slap happy and excited that we were going home soon!


We all went out to dinner that day after finals were over. Applebee's was the choice. After stuffing our faces, we came home and cranked up some music and started our clean checks. I hate those. I was stuck with the kitchen again but oh well. We were all dancing around the house and cleaning our assigned areas. I moved on to my room and was trying to take the bricks out from under my bed. I asked Maia to help me and in the process of trying to flip my mattress over and move the bricks, she fell and scraped her knee on the bricks. ha ha . i felt bad but couldn't help but laugh. (earlier in the semester, she was walking home and totally tripped over her feet and fell. She scraped her elbows and knee's. ) I had to take the shuttle at 2 in the morning so i didn't even bother sleeping. We stayed up and watched 27 dresses for the millionth time that semester. :) It took me about 4 hours to get to Salt Lake. My flight was at 8. I had about an hour to sit and wait but it went by pretty fast because i was so excited. My flight was about 6 hours long and i was about to kill myself and everyone around me. We stopped in New Mexico and Texas. I slept most the time though since i stayed up that night. It was the first time i'd ever really slept on a plane. When i landed Trent was there to get me and i got to see Amanda! ha, it's awesome were both from St. Louis.

So, i came home and things started to fall back into place. I got to see the Dark Knight when i came home that night. Trent took me. I was sooo excited. That movie totally rocked. I got my job back at Bandana's which worked out really well.

Mayhem Fest at the Verizon Wireless Amp. I went with the whole gang. It was awesome! but so hot...That's pretty much all that's been going on since i've been home! But...i am now an AUNT!!! I"M SO EXCITED. Baby Roman came into the world yesterday. 7lbs 3 ounces. I'll post pictures when my brother gives me some. :)

Take care all!

<3 Randi

its been forever since i posted on here...but....I COME HOME IN 5 DAYS!!!!! :D

well, got my hopes up. Trent can't come. He can, but can't. Better to save money for school. It makes me sad cause i spent money to come home for him. oh well i guess. yah and i cant stand his friends either. ugh

1 month 7 days

just another day

Sometimes we'll stumble and fail, but that's no reason to get back up and try again. We can choose our own paths because we have the brains to choose. I hope and pray that you all will choose your own correct path that Heavenly Father has in store for you. Do EVERYTHING in your power to not give into the world around you. trust me, i've learned from experience. The world does change even the most Christ like person. Dare to be different and stand for something. Besides, if you stand for nothing then you'll fall for everything. I have learned not to let other peoples comments not affect me. I am my own person and i am completly responsible for my own actions and i will accept my consequences from those actions. I'm sorry to those i have wronged, or let down an any way. Sometimes you really need to be shown what it is your doing wrong to realize you need to change. Even though you think you are being completly harmless, you are disgracing your Father in Heaven. Never say harsh words to those that critisize you. They only are trying to help you improve yourself and make you glorious in the eyes of God. Always be willing to accept your wrong and admit it. And never be afraid to change. Change can be the best gift we recieve next to agency. Don't let contention run your life. Take charge and change

whatevr

today was not a good day. aggravation was the key word. woke up with a fatty headache. didnt do anything all day. Trent was at Kenna's alllll day....so couldnt really count on him to cheer me up. I hate talking to him when he's with other people. Idk i just hate hate hate that he goes over there and talks to her all the time. it drives me crazy but whatever. im not going to make a big deal. someone that understands him and someone that he can tell his problems too..im glad. just kinda bothers me that he can hang out at some girls house for 7 hours just talking to her and he cant even do that with me. I wonder if andrew gets this aggravated about it....

doubt it.

i wanna go home

well i thought things were going okay....then i started thinking about everything. Got some feelings like i needed to change some things in my life and help him with his problems. scratch that, he's never good enough for me. I ask way too much of him and the things i ask are completely unreasonable. Darn, i thought i was just trying to build him up to be what i know he's capable of. That's why he was sent here. Wasn't it??

Ugh, i need to stop getting in my own way. Goin` to the spirit rally tonight. Woo hoo! Not in much of a spirit mood. Least i can be a goof and act happy. Something i've found about myself, I am quite the actress. It's either really impressive, or people are just plain stupid. I'm going to guess a little bit of both..

maybe you can do better than me..... :[[

Yesterday was awesome!! me and my roommates went to Yellowstone. it was my first time there and yea, it was an experience. We stopped to see the Geysers first and they smelled horrible. haha. then we went to Old Faithful and watched it go off. We ate lunch at the Lodge there and after we left we were going to do a loop in the park but Karalyn drove the wrong way towards the south entrance and when we saw the sign we just laughed. We came across a few buffalo right on the road and we stopped to take pictures. Karalyn decided to put her head out the window and irritate the buffalo and he turned his head and started to charge the car. We all freaked out haha. When we left the park, we went to this little cafe and it sucked! the food was gross and the service was horrible. blahhh. enough said. we went to the playmill...we saw Oklahoma. The lord protected us because we still had a mission we had to accomplish in this life. He was aware of me. I felt his spirit so strong. THere was no way else anyone else could have survived that pretty much the whole way home we were crying and listening to church music. WHoma! It was awesome. Then on the way home it changed. Ashley was driving and we were all relaxing and trying to sleep until she screamed and we all looked up and saw a giant moose walking across the road. she grabbed the wheel and turned to miss the moose. since it was raining we hydroplaned and spun around 3 times before we finally stopped. I went on lockdown. i was paralyzed. i just kept thinking oh gosh please dont hit the guardrail please dont flip over. It was a miracle and i think everyone could feel the higher power protecting us. We caught our breath and drove to the side of the road. we all got out and by that time we were all crying. I kept thinking how it was possible that we survien we got home i called my mom and dad and the first time in a long time i was so grateful to hear their voice. I couldnt stop crying. My love and faith in the Lord was so intense at that moment. I couldnt even describe it, i had so many thoughts running through my head. I talked to Trent for awhile and i felt so bad because he was irritating me by asking me questions and i felt horrible for the way i treated him. i was just sad he couldnt be there to comfort me. I got a blessing from mark!! he's so awesome. i was so grateful that he was so in tune with the spirit to give me such a great blessing.

Today was crazy as well. We all got up for church knowing it was going to be a really soggy sunday. We talked to bishop when we got there and he told us that we all had something we needed to be thinking about during the sacrament. I sat there and started thinking..."its such a blessing the way things turned out the way they did last night. if i would have died last night i wouldnt have made it to the celestial kingdom. I would have stood in front of my father, unworthy and disgusting to him. :( My desires are there to be clean and pure in my thoughts and deeds but i cant seem to stop giving into temptation. I hate the feelings of guilt and uncleanliness as i see others more righteous that I. Ive made mistakes and repented of them only to make the same mistakes again. Why do i not learn and continue to keep messing up and hurting myself? I get so scared of confessing because of the shame i feel. All i see is mistakes. But i truly desire to be righteous and be rid of the sin. Lately, i've felt like ive just been coasting through life not really happy or sad. Yesterday was a big wake up call for me. I realize how precious life really is and how much i need to value it. I need to be the best i can be today so i stop living in the past and move on with my life..."

Truly each day is a gift from God.....

Randi Rochelle