so im in a horrible mood today.
It's probably a mix of things. I don't think I've ever been this sleep deprived in my life. Granted, i didn't expect anything different with twins but i seriously feel like I'm going to collapse. All the girls do is cry and I know their only 2 weeks old and i need to realize that's what newborns do but It's really discouraging when I can only calm them down for a short period of time and then they start fussing again. I feel like I'm doing something wrong. Idk. My husband is still away from me and I can't stand it. I feel so alone most the time and it's really hard being strong and not breaking down when I'm already so on edge from taking care of the girls and being so tired. I know it's not his fault and he can't help being away. He really loves being in the Army and i just want him to be happy so half the time i dont bother saying anything because I don't want to guilt trip him. I just miss him so much especially at night when the girls are both screaming and I want to cry and I don't have anyone to comfort me. He thinks I might have post partum depression. Idk if i do. I think i just need to adjust to being a mommy and suck it up.
Anyways, the girls had a doctors appointment today. The doctor just needed to make sure they weighed more than they did when they were born. They did. Alyssa is mommy's good eater. She was 6.3 at birth and now shes 7 lbs exactly. She eats so much! I can hardly pump enough to feed her let alone her sister. Savannah doesn't eat as much but she's still doing great. She weighed 5.10 at birth and now is 6.3. I'm just so happy their both doing well and gaining the appropriate amount. I was really worried because for some reason my body doesn't seem to be able to produce enough milk. Every feeding I can only make 2 ounces...which was fine at first but as their continuing to grow, I should be making more. Hopefully there is a pill or something I can get on to be able to make enough for them. Right now I'm having to give them a little bit of formula if I cant cover it. Hopefully things turn around cause i really don't want to start having to buy formula. Plus it's not as healthy anyway.
Blah anyways, the girls are sleeping and my mood is going down by the minute so I'm off to bed.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Stressed
Posted by Randi & Trent at 4:24 PM
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Hey, I know this is kinda weird me commenting but I have a little bit of experience, not with twins of course. The pumping part I do have a bit of experience on and not producing enough milk. Motherlove.com saved me from spending money on formula. Aiden had a weight problem in the beginning and we didn't know why exactly. Took him to a specialist and because his jaw was so far back he couldn't suck on anything properly and I had some problems myself which I know one of the problems went away but the other, I won't know until my little girl is born. I not only nursed him but I also pumped every hour to two hours, yes it was very hard but so worth it. Motherlove.com sells a liquid form of herbs that will increase your milk supply if your interested and want to pump more. There are pills you can get but they don't work as fast. When I was using it I would fill a whole a bottle of milk and soon had a supply for him when I went back to work. Don't know if any of this helped but good luck and your girls look great!
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